~joey~The Inner Me~

该醒了

2011-09-04T17:19:00.002+08:00

曾经我以为我们真的还有可能甜美的梦只维持在那一瞬间突然毫无警惕的醒了回到之前的生活，之前的空虚我们都没做错什么只是一切进行得太快而脱轨你没给我希望，是我自己想太多一段感情没了，也就回不去从前就算回得去，也会少了某些东西你還是要幸福你千萬不要再招惹別人哭所有錯誤從我這裏落幕別跟著我銘心刻骨你還是要幸福我才能確定我還得很清楚確定自己再也不會佔據你的篇幅明天開始這一切都結束

HATE

2011-06-07T21:18:00.002+08:00

when i read my wall post..i hate what i saw.. i really mean that i DAMN HATE IT!!!i hate what i saw..i hate what i feel after reading all that posts..when you asked me that particular same question for several times, i lied with the same answer..because i dont want to cause any trouble or problem..actually i shouldnt have this kind of feeling..but it seems like i cant stop what i feel..this is

乱

2011-04-24T20:48:00.002+08:00

心情很复杂。。开始对某某某有某种奇怪的感觉。。我不想否认。。不过还不能确定。。只知道现在开始关注某某某了。。心中一直不肯删除的影子开始淡化。。呃。。好像也没有淡化。。只是不怎么想了。。现在只好让时间来证明。。

看不见的心情

2011-04-06T22:01:00.003+08:00

人类有时很矛盾。。明明自己没犯错，可是却怀疑自己到底哪里做错了。。很想说出口，，却偏偏保持一贯的沉默。。坚持不说不问，是想维持现状，不想改变。。仔细想想，也许只有这样才不会发生变化。。激动的心情没人看得出。。摆着一张臭脸是我的本能。。只有自己的本能才能保护自己不被伤害。。有时候很讨厌自己。。责怪自己为什么这副德性，为什么这么与世隔绝。。对，与世隔绝。。不晓得怎么和别人沟通是我的弱点，沉默与臭脸是我的缺点。。现在只想说对不起。。

疯了

2011-03-31T22:07:00.002+08:00

最近不断看韩剧，听韩语歌。。迷上了韩风，真是疯了。。虽然不懂他们在讲些什么，可是却喜欢这样的陌生。。刚考完试，放肆了。。尽看些爱情剧，听爱情歌，读爱情小说。。全都不属于课业。。可是我却偏偏喜爱这样的悠闲。。最近好像不再那么倔强的想起以前的事了。。开始放下了吗？好像有点不舍。。最近看‘梦想高中’。。里头饰演‘真国’的Taecyeon吸引了我。。他真的有像Taecyeon。。每一次有‘真国’的片段我都会想起他。。对我来说他们的脸型和五官真的有像。。所以我会特别注意Taecyeon..无论在Dream High 或是 2PM。。

even if i die, i cant let you go - 2AM

2011-03-30T23:47:00.000+08:00

Eoryeodo apeun geon ttok gataSesangeul jal moreundago apeungeol moreujin anhaGwaenchana jil georago wae geojitmareul haeIreohke apeun gaseumi eotteohke shwipge natgesseoNeo eobshi eotteohke salgesseo geuraeseo nanJugeodo mot bonae naega eotteohke neol bonaeGaryeo geodeun tteonaryeo geodeun nae gaseum gochyeo naeApeuji anhke na saragal surado itgeAndwindamyeon eochapi ussal geoJugeodo mot

心痛

2011-03-05T00:42:00.000+08:00

一个朋友让我听了这首歌，他说丁当唱的不好听。。可是我听后只有心痛的感觉。。不是不好听，可能太投入，觉得心痛，好想哭。。好久都没哭了，以为哭不出来。。谁知在去佛堂的路途我竟落泪。。路途有经过我们去过的咖啡馆。。想起那个时候的我们和现在的我们，差好多。。以前总会问自己到底在哭什么。。现在我懂了，是心痛。。从以前什么都说的好朋友到现在的不闻不问。。这种起伏超大的情绪我真的不会控制。。半年了。。还不能习惯它的原因是什么？我真的不知道。。从来没有这么久过。。真的从来没有过一次。。压抑自己的情绪不容易。。不过看在已经有一段时间没哭，已经算是进步了。。半夜了。。好想好好的哭个够。。

is this for real?

2011-03-02T22:57:00.003+08:00

gemini uses 6 months to forget a person..how about me???it's already been 6 months since that day..but it doesnt seem to fade away..

有口说别人，没口说自己

2011-02-05T23:29:00.002+08:00

中学的同班朋友邀我明天去他家拜年。。说是同学聚会。。他，也会去。。而他的那个她也被邀了，不过却不知她是否会去。。我想了想，明天还要去亲戚家拜年，就拒绝了。。不过最大原因还是没勇气。。我好像选择了逃避。。朋友遇到了困难，我总是劝她们要勇于面对问题所在。。这样事情才能解决。。可是我的情节好像没得解决。。好像一旦解决了，就会失去某些东西。。必须承认，我害怕。。所以选择不去面对。。如果我们真的见面了，会怎样？尴尬，一定的。。会回到以前那样无话不谈吗？好像不会了。。如果看到他看她的眼神呢？我想选择瞬间变盲，这样就看不见了。。不过回到现实，我不会自残，我爱我自己。。那些只是幻想出来的画面和想法。。同样的问题又浮现在脑海---为什么我会变成这样？以前的我分手后或者单恋失败都不会像现在这样。。以前虽然还是会伤心哭泣，却很快恢复元气，潇洒的放下。。这次也很潇洒，不过心里却潇洒不起。。

CNY??? its just a normal celebration for me this year

2011-02-04T23:14:00.003+08:00

today is the second day of Chinese New Year..and for me the celebration is kind of too short because im gonna start school on next monday..there are quite many messages sent by friends..but a message that i hope the most just wouldnt appear on my phone screen..i sent to him.. but what i get back is silence..i hate that feeling A LOT..are we still friends??? i wonder..if you dont want to be

2011-01-26T22:14:00.001+08:00

有时候真的很辛苦。。想忘记，偏偏很难。。想大哭，更是艰难。。因为不能让身边的人担心。。所以只能偷偷的哭泣。。

can i make it???

2011-01-22T20:48:00.003+08:00

this thursday the girls were calling me out for a drink in the evening..and i was shocked that my parents agree so easily.. ^^well.. although there was only 4 of us.. but we still managed to have some fun..until the last 1 hour..the issue was about me..asking me about the past..actually i was feeling ok to talk about it..but i cant control my tears falling down from my eyes..i cried twice during

Goodbye-Jang Geun Suk

2011-01-13T20:49:00.000+08:00

o to ka jo ba ra man bo ne yojal bu nin sa jo cha go nel su ga om ne yoshi ri do rok cha ga un ne son ja ba ju ji mai je nun gu man bo ne ya ha joo to ka jo mo ro jo ga ne yoga sum ga duk nun mul man cha o ne yoe so gam cho bwa do mom chul su ga op so yokun ne jap ji mo tan i ma mul o to ka na yosa rang het don gu gi o gun no chi ma ra yoda shi ut ke he jul da run sa ram man na doa pun i byol ka

Jang Geun Suk - What should i do

2011-01-13T20:45:00.001+08:00

male version.. XD

What Should I Do-Park Da Ye

2011-01-13T20:43:00.000+08:00

han go ru man kum gu del bo ne myonnun mu ri na han go ru man kumgu de ga ga myon to nun mu ri hu lo waso nul po do do son ne mi ro doda hul su om nun go su rogu de ga nun de jap ji mo ta gona nul go ma nit joo to ka jo o to ka jogu de ga to na ga ne yoo to ka jo o to ka jonal du go to na ga ne yosa rang he yo sa rang he yomok no ha bu lo bo ji mangu den dut ji mo te yoga su mu ro manwe chi go i

JANG GEUN SUK!!!

2011-01-13T20:32:00.002+08:00

OMG!!!he is way too handsome and cute!!!i cant help falling into HIM!!!i know im crazy..but i just cant pull myself out of this..and i dont want to crawl out of this.. ^^

Still-A.N.JELL

2011-01-02T13:09:00.002+08:00

Sa rang eun a nil geo ra goJeol dae ro a nil geo ra goMae beon sog yeo wat ji man naeMam eun ja kku neo reur bu reo goHan geor eum do mang chyeo bo goHan geur eum mir eo nae bwa doGeu reor su rog neon nae an eKeo jeo ga go iss eoGeu man keum sa rang ha na bwaGeu man keum gi da ri na bwaGeu to rog a peu ge hae do nae mamEun neor tteo nar su eopt na bwaSa rang eun ha na in ga bwaNae mam eun byeon

Without Words-Park Shin Hye

2011-01-02T13:02:00.001+08:00

Hajimalgul geuraessuhMo reunchuk haebuhligolAnbo ee neun guetchoromBohl soo obneun gotchorom nol hayeBo jee mal gul geuraetnah bwaDomangchil gol geuraessuhMotdeuleun chog geurolgolDeut ji do mot ha neun chogDeuleun suobneun gotchorom hayeNae sarang deut ji ahneul golChorusMaldo obshi sarangeul algae hagoMaldo obshi sarangeul naegae jugoSumgeol hana jo cha nol dam gaehae no khoEe rokhae do mang ga

2011

2010-12-31T23:54:00.002+08:00

there is still left a few minutes to reach 2011..a whole new year, a whole new life..happy new year.. ^^hope everyone will have a lucky and safe year..

2010-12-30T21:40:00.003+08:00

今天是他的生日。。本来说好了会为他下厨煮一餐给他吃。。也说好会唱歌给他听。。可是那已经不可能了。。天在下雨，心在淌血，眼在喷泪。。有好几次用华语写部落都是因为不想让他明白我在写什么。。虽然有可能他看得懂，不过也只有这样才能让我放心。。即使他不一定会看我的部落。。才过了3个月。。不过对于我来说好像过了好久。。还是很想很想他。。现在没有人可以取代他。。那以后呢？他很特别，和其他男生不一样。。他不会说别人坏话，不会讲别人是非。。他虽然有点懒，不过很有责任感。。最重要的是他跟我很谈的来。。我们什么都可以聊，废话连篇，笑话满天飞。。连上大号这种事都可以聊很久。。也许话题很无聊。。不过我们都很放松，很开心，没有压力。。朴信惠(Park Shin Hye)的WITHOUT WORDS很适合我现在的心情。。最近迷上了这首歌。。觉得音调，歌词和旋律很柔美，很凄凉。。整首歌超好听。。

寂寞

2010-12-28T23:14:00.002+08:00

舍弃了孤独，还有寂寞陪伴在身边。。想你的时候看看照片，看看简讯。。就这样让时间流过。。不过有时在想，这样的日子还要持续多久。。我到底还需要多少时间来把你给忘掉。。还需要多久才能遇上另外一个。。不过能够遇到像你这样的朋友好像很难。。能够让我放下身段，放下防备心的好像只有你。。在一起的时候真的觉得什么都是美好的，无忧无虑。。什么事情都能够和你说，总是我的忠实听众。。很怀念以前的感觉。。很怀念以前你对我的好。。还好现在有寂寞陪着我，不会那么孤独。。不过，我还是喜欢你。。

someone else is coming to town..

2010-12-21T23:01:00.003+08:00

you know what???i really cant wait until this Saturday..OMG.. im going to sing in front of Hebe.. @.@hope that i wont run my pitch and reach the high notes with the right key..hahaa.. but i still have to wait patiently for 4 more days.. ==yeah.. JOEY!!! BE PATIENT!!!you better watch outyou better not cryyou better not poutim telling you whysomeone else is coming to town.. XD

A N JELL

2010-12-17T22:07:00.004+08:00

OMG!!!the actors are super duper handsome!!!especially Jang Geun Suk!!! >

又来了

2010-12-15T22:40:00.001+08:00
还是老样子。。每天都看一样的简讯。。每天都抱着一样的心情。。每当看偶像剧的某种情节也都会想他。。很奇怪。。以前的我都不会这样。。以前很快的就会没感觉。。可是现在心痛的问题还是那么的清晰。。以前我真的不会这样。。以前我总大喇喇的，事情过了就算。。不过这一次好像有点不对劲。。事情过了好像还不能算。。天啊！我到底该怎么办？！我知道没人可以救得了我。。只有我自己。。

drive

2010-12-02T22:46:00.002+08:00
woohoo.. my dad taught me drive today..feel so syok when making the turning points.. hahaa.. XDsuddenly there was a few policeman passed by..so i quickly parked the car aside..luckily they didnt stop their motorcycle..if not i already dead.. hahaa.. XDreally fun when driving..i just thought that my dad's car is a bit too heavy and large for me..the steering wheel is quite hard to control..but

思念太猖狂

2010-11-25T23:28:00.003+08:00
最近的情绪好波动。。往往想起一些不想回忆却很自掏苦吃的事情。。我知道我该死。。可是那又有什么办法。。偏偏不想，却偏偏自找。。可悲，可笑。。还是两者兼备。。我其实不软弱，只是非一般的感性，双子的性格。。白天面对着人，说真的我什么也不会想起来。。只是该死的到了夜晚寂静一个人的时候，心和脑袋就会开始神经错乱，胡思乱想。。导致该做的没做，不该想的全都想起。。有时候我会笑自己为什么会这样。。始终找不出答案。。昨晚临睡前突然想起以前和他的点点滴滴。。好多画面。。在班上坐我隔壁讨论功课，闲聊，说废话，讲八卦，听我唱歌，一起趴在桌子上睡觉。。出去唱KTV，看电影，你都坐我隔壁，互相闹着对方玩。。那时跟你拍照我真的还蛮紧张的。。有好一段时间你每天都会定时的和我传简讯聊天直到睡觉。。也许你会问我们真的有那么多话题可以聊吗？我们已经到了无所不谈的边缘。。只是还有一些需要保留的。。

2010-11-24T23:12:00.003+08:00
is it because now is on holiday that's why bored until nothing to post???looks like there is a need to spice up the mind and soul..in order to get back the mood of blogging..but.. how???there's nothing for me to do..and my mind is blank..but still flashed back many things that happen in the past..and this cause me to become quite moody..i know i shouldn't think so much..and it just that im so

i dont like holidays

2010-11-19T21:57:00.003+08:00
oh shit..crying again..because of missing all my TARC friends..just saw something at my wall post which wrote by bbw..then cried out immediately..stupid me..feel like want to go college everyday and dont hope that there is a holiday in front of us..because i already get bored with 'HOLIDAYS'.. ==there is nothing i can do during holidays..everyday sit, sleep, eat, watch tv, online, play with dogs.

X_X

2010-11-06T20:46:00.002+08:00
already passed 2 months..and it's still the same..im not hoping anything..just curious about the situation that being involved..and i dont like this kind of feeling..

祷告

2010-10-23T21:24:00.002+08:00
今天一打开面子书和微博，就看见了Selina拍戏被火灼伤的新闻。真的很心疼，鼻头一酸眼泪也流了下来。真的觉得她很可怜。一个这么怕痛的女生竟然被烧成这样，一定需要很大的勇气来面对。Selina公主，要勇敢的去面对这一切困难。身边还有两个老婆，家人，亲朋好友和世界各地的歌迷都会一直为你祈祷，希望你早日康复。上天，请保佑赛琳娜，好让她可以继续把欢乐和乐观主义带给大家。Selina，一定要加油噢。爱你。

simple but stress life

2010-10-14T21:18:00.002+08:00
didn't update my blog quite a while.. as i dont have much time to blog..but as the conclusion..i dont have much time because of doing nothing..every night before i sleep..i'll think: what did i do today? revision? no.. homework? didnt touch before.. how are you going to face the exam? dont know..im scared of every subject..especially business studies because i didnt touch it AT ALL..these few

吳克羣沒關係 MV

2010-10-02T16:39:00.001+08:00
你離開的時候沒有一句沒有一句對不起對不起是我太執迷你離開的時候沒有一句沒有一句話說清說清楚離開的原因也许他可靠他實制他不一樣他能夠給你安全感不只夢想誰還在乎一起傻傻說過的那些話沒關係我們分了沒關係這不是你的問題是我沒那個福氣沒福氣卻又愛上你就算哭了沒關係這不是你的問題痛痛快快給我一枪我沒關係愛情裡面總有一個比較傻怪就怪我放不下NO..痛苦給我幸福留給你和他沒關係沒關係沒關係

test 3

2010-09-26T15:31:00.002+08:00
still have 1 more month to go..test 3 is around the corner..already failed my maths and business in test 2..i cant continue to behave like this..i have to start my revision no matter how..im getting more stress day by day..but still sitting in front of the computer online and play games..my mom keep mumbling me..as i really almost everyday switch on the pc everynight..wasting time online and do

enjoy-ING~~~

2010-09-24T14:45:00.002+08:00
started to love college life already..having a bunch of friends along all the way to campus, in the class, canteen, all the way back from campus, and of course shopping too.. ^^we like to gossip here and there..and i really do like that kind of atmosphere.. XDKLCC is the place where we always hang out after class..and sometimes if we really lucky enough then we'll get the opportunity to see some

changed

2010-09-23T21:20:00.002+08:00
the time passed by every second..everything had changed by every minute..this includes me, you and all of us..i know i cant control everything in my hands..that's why im letting go of it..another mind asked me: are you serious?mm.. yes maybe.. cant tell the exact answer now..still in the middle of confusing world..am i doing the right thing? or choosing the wrong way??day dreaming most of the

Love The Way You Lie

2010-09-21T21:21:00.000+08:00
just gonna stand there and watch me burnwell that's alright because i like the way it hurtsjust gonna stand there and hear me crywell that's alright because i love the way you liei love the way you lie

i hate to wait

2010-09-19T22:43:00.002+08:00
i cant stand it anymore..i really hate to wait..still cant get used to this situation..I DONT WANT TO LOSE THIS FRIEND!!! T.Tmy friend keep saying give both of us some time..but i just dont have much patience to wait any longer..you know what???you are torturing me.. do you know that?!i rather let you hurt me 1 more time..

im ok ^^

2010-09-16T13:17:00.003+08:00
today is a holiday..dont feel like want to go out but relax my mind at home..feeling better now..as yesterday went for karaoke again and bowling..when i sang until the middle part..wow.. i just cant control my tears..luckily after that i didnt cry anymore..i felt relax..really want to thanks a lot to my friends..they really did play their part and help me when im down.. ^^i wont let myself left

2010-09-14T20:50:00.001+08:00
just ignore the posts i wrote below..

im wrong

2010-09-13T22:04:00.002+08:00
i thought that my feelings towards you is only just a 'like'..but today im so sure that im wrong.. i always thinking about you, missing you, and hoping to see you as soon as possible..that's just more than a 'like' should 'behave'..ok.. i have to admit it..i dont like you, but i love you..i cant open my eyes now.. going to sleep.. @><@

im getting crazy~~~

2010-09-13T20:41:00.002+08:00
im very tired and sleepy now..i cant think of anything..all im thinking and missing is you..I MISS YOU... T.Ti cant eat properly..i cant concentrate on my study..i cant focus on anything that i want to do.. >

worry

2010-09-11T23:14:00.003+08:00
this is the 1st time i realise that i am actually worrying about you..you said you cant drink beer but u still drink it.. (korean beer.. didnt try before.. XD)i totally no mood..i was damn worried that your body cant stand the alcohol thing.. >

To Hebe

2010-09-10T16:22:00.006+08:00
yeah.. i got the album yesterday.. >

miracle~

2010-09-08T23:04:00.003+08:00
you sent me the message on 7/9/2010--00.00am..i just cant believe what i saw on my phone screen at the moment..u wrote 'i love you, can you be my gf?'..'oh my god' is the 1st word came out from my mouth..i cant really sleep well that night..and the next day i thought a lot..whether to accept you or not..at last i said 'yes'.. and im still in the middle of 'still cant believe' mood.. XDmy besties

whee~~

2010-09-01T22:45:00.002+08:00
happy, happy, happy..is all i can feel currently.. ^^happy because of someone else.. (hope that he wont read this post.. XP)every moment are happy as long as i can feel that he is with me..im still not so sure what my feels towards him..but i know that im happy because of him and other problems are just a piece of cake to me..

田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好 (HQ 官方版MV)

2010-08-27T16:02:00.001+08:00
寂寞寂寞就好詞: 施人誠曲: 楊子樸編曲: 鍾興民還是原來那個我不過流掉幾公升淚所以變瘦對著鏡子我承諾遲早我會還這張臉一堆笑容不算什麼愛錯就愛錯早點認錯早一點解脫我寂寞寂寞就好這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱就讓我一個人去痛到受不了想到快瘋掉死不了就還好我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的借來的都該還掉我總會把你戒掉還是原來那個你是我自己做夢你有改變什麼再多的愛也沒用每個人有每個人的業障因果會有什麼什麼都沒有早點看破才看得見以後我寂寞寂寞就好這時候誰都別來安慰擁抱就讓我一個人去痛到受不了想到快瘋掉死不了就還好我寂寞寂寞就好你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑我就不相信我會笨到忘不了賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的我總會把你戒掉

Hebe田馥甄《LOVE》MV全球首播(清晰)

2010-08-13T15:49:00.000+08:00
我爱你你爱她她爱他他爱她你爱我我爱他他爱她她爱他咦怎么这世界已经没有人相爱怎么这世界每个人都不快乐怎么这世界每个人都爱别人不爱自己咦怎么这世界已经没有人相爱怎么这世界每个人都不快乐怎么这世界每个人都爱别人不爱自己WOOTS~~~ XDnice nice nice...cant wait until 3/9/10!!!

LOVE-Hebe

2010-08-12T12:35:00.001+08:00
我爱你你爱她她爱他他爱她你爱我我爱他他爱她她爱他咦怎么这世界已经没有人相爱怎么这世界每个人都不快乐怎么这世界每个人都爱别人不爱自己咦怎么这世界已经没有人相爱怎么这世界每个人都不快乐怎么这世界每个人都爱别人不爱自己http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/kJiRw4FykX4/

Hebe---"TO HEBE"

2010-08-11T09:34:00.002+08:00
YEAH!!! Hebe is going to released her 1st album soon.. >< LOVE HEBE!!! ^^

stress~~ AGAIN.. T.T

2010-08-02T13:45:00.002+08:00
Malaysian Studies presentation this Wednesday..General paper assignment next Thursday..Business Studies exam end of this month..OMG.. what am i suppose to do?!haiz.. damn stress.. but still dont have the mood to study and finish all my homework..that's me.. XD continue my classes later at 2pm..Gosh~~ Accounting and Maths.. >

Blood Donation

2010-07-29T12:32:00.002+08:00
whee~~ i gave blood yesterday.. XD1st i have my blood test after i feel in the form..the nurse poke something onto my middle-finger and pressed it so that the blood will be forced to come out..although the nurse pressed the finger for so long, there was still not much blood..so, she poke my 2nd finger..finally she got enough of my blood to test.. == i was damn nervous before the donation..but

Sushi King

2010-07-27T22:18:00.002+08:00
ChinYee, KahYee, WeiWen and i went for Sushi King to have our lunch after school..we took train to go to KLCC and have my 1st-time-visit to Sushi King.. XDwell, i ordered a set lunch with a plate of grilled Japanese fish with rice(i forgot what's the fish's name.. ==), a bowl of egg with mushrooms and crab meat and a small bowl of seasoning soup(the taste was quite weird for me, but still

Hong Kong relatives~~

2010-07-19T20:32:00.005+08:00
grandma's brother and his family came to Malaysia for vacation while visited us yerterday night.. XDi first them meet them and just felt a bit uneasy..maybe because i didnt see them before..i have an eight years old cousin sister..i just knew that.. XDshe is having a summer holiday now..that's why so have the opportunity to visit my family.. ^^and she has a Facebook account.. 0.0she is cute, cute

son of the bitch

2010-07-06T21:31:00.002+08:00
seriously im not mad..that 4 Malay guys are really sons of the bitch!!!early in the morning i walked to the bus station and wait for my friend to come..when i saw there was 2 motorbikes coming to my way, i immediately stopped my steps and stand at the roadside..when the 2 motorbikes passed by me, 1 of the 'assholes' suddenly said 'tepi la chi bai lu' and laugh like crazies after that..wow.. i was

stress..

2010-07-02T23:03:00.002+08:00
exams coming..and i still haven start my revision yet.. 'good'.. ==lazy and dont have the mood to do revision..notes still haven copy finish yet..damn.. how am i going to face the A Level exams??i dont know what the hell Mr Clyne is teaching..Applied and Pure Maths are killing me..the questions look familiar..but the solutions and calculations are just too much for me..1 word to describe---

2010-06-19T17:48:00.002+08:00
i really tired of handling this kind of position..i hate to have this responsibility in me..i dont like to handle so much things..i dont like to be involved in some kind of 'leadership'..feel like want to quit just like that..just go whenever i want..no need to attend classes..being free and no one will tell or order me what to do..feeling kind of depressed sometimes..going to face my exams soon.

tired..

2010-06-18T23:50:00.002+08:00
just came back from mom's company dinner..at The Ritz-Carlton Hotel..buffet-style dinner..vegetarian, chinese and last but not least the Japanese food..i tried an oyster, quite slimy and cold..but it taste nice when you eat it with the japanese sauce.. XDdrank half glass of red wine..smells good, taste nice..I LOVE THE AROMA OF THE WINE!!! XDwant to ask for another half glass..but dad just wont

photos of 12/06

2010-06-13T20:35:00.006+08:00
Venue: GreenBox--Sg.WangTime : 11am-2pm

out with friends..

2010-06-12T22:39:00.002+08:00
today KeeLin, KahKeat and SookMoon celebrated my belated birthday with me..sang karaoke at Sg Wang from 11am until 2pm..we went to Tm Midah Old Town Cafe after that..KahKeat mentioned the education and business things to us..and it seems like very interesting for us.. XDi have the interest to join, but need to have the approval from my parents 1st..today quite enjoying at Greenbox..sang like no

happy birthday..

2010-06-09T21:06:00.003+08:00
today is my 18th birthday..didnt go out celebrate because everyone is not free..so postpone to this saturday..looking forward to celebrate with friends.. ^^today didint study at all..just read some novels, watch tv programmes and online.. XDgot many friends wished me..quite satisfied.. hahaa.. ^^thanks a lot, my friends..and happy birthday to Nazzir too..raining now.. quite heavy.. im 18, and i

爱上你

2010-06-09T20:52:00.001+08:00
什么都不要懂只想继续做梦害怕醒来以后握不住你的手是谁太不成熟没体谅彼此感受我不停寻找着理由解释分手心好空像没温度的气球我的灵魂困在回忆中动也不能动爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落可惜你永远都不会懂什么都不要懂只想继续做梦害怕醒来以后握不住你的手如果同一秒钟你也想起了我心只要能微微颤抖就已足够爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂可是怀念竟比失去还要更难受噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落或许我永远都看不透爱上你不需要理由你到底懂不懂伤心快乐在回忆中反复的交错噢~爱让我想起你的时候泪禁不住滑落可惜你永远都不会懂放心我还会好好的过

~@~

2010-06-06T20:57:00.002+08:00
freaking tired and exhausted..back pain, feet pain, muscle pain, the whole body pain!!!because i was just came back from camp..its a camp which held by Confusion Yi-Guan Association..having fun during the whole camping..although we were not really camping at the outdoor..but all of the students are quite disciplined.. (me and SookMoon are teachers..)what kind of teachers are we??well, we are the

changed again..

2010-06-03T22:21:00.002+08:00
edited my blogger again.. XDthis time is a bit kind of creamy and harmony..although it is not my favourite colour, but i stil like it..not only changed the header, as well as templates too..and also the colours of the font..i have tried to matched the suitable colour for my blog..the conclusion is---a new page for me..simple, harmony and elegant.. ^^now im thinking the next colour of my blogger

no title of the day

2010-06-02T21:35:00.002+08:00
having pimples on my face these few days.. ==because im suffering from unknown depressed and pressure..and also problems from someone or somewhere else..luckily im not having white hair now.. feeling kind of complicated..but dont know what is the reason..dont feel like want to talk to anyone now..being kind of emotional is not what i want..because it causes me having pimples all over my face.. ==

放弃你

2010-06-01T21:05:00.004+08:00
我想我並不聰明我沒有你的機靈在愛情變質之前我沒反應沒察覺你的表情你知道我不聰明所以才選擇放棄放棄去猜你每一個反應去猜你是否變心放棄你放棄愛情放棄了所有權利連自己都知道這不公平放棄你放棄自己放棄了愛的權利放棄你等於放棄我自己你知道我不聰明所以我選擇放棄放棄去猜該如何留住你放棄了所有回憶放棄你放棄愛情放棄了所有權利連自己都知道這不公平放棄你放棄自己放棄了愛的權利放棄你等於放棄我自己放棄你放棄愛情放棄了所有權利連自己都知道這不公平放棄你放棄自己放棄了愛的權利放棄你等於放棄我自己放棄你等於放棄我自己----------------------------------------想了很久。好想向这首歌一样，放弃你。办得到吗?今天忽然在车上流下了眼泪。因为卑微，因为想念，因为舍不得。今天的心情写照---很糟。虽然在校园可以笑得很开。可是当一个人寂静的时候，心里的另一个我跑出来了。

happy.. ^^

2010-05-30T21:07:00.001+08:00
Selina is going to have a happy love story..yesterday was their 32th concert which held in Taiwan..but in the middle of the show, there was a lawyer guy showed off his love to Selina..wow.. it was all happened in a sudden.. XDSelina was too shocked and cried like mad..and nearly fainted too..its because she is too happy and dont know that this kind of thing will happen to her..after i watched the

习惯

2010-05-29T23:16:00.002+08:00
刚刚看了许多篇文章，突然有种想写部落的冲动。我想是已经习惯成自然了。因为每天都写，所以自然而然地想打起键盘写部落。看了那些文章，有很多感触。尤其是---习惯，这两个子。虽然和你在一起只有短短的一个月的时间，就已足够让我习惯有你的存在。虽然我们不能时常见面，连讲电话的时间也及之又少。不过却可能因为这样，而让我更珍惜每一次的见面，每一次的聊天。因为习惯了这种形式，所以会很想念。习惯了让你先挂电话，因为舍不得结束我们的对谈。习惯了让你从佛堂接送我回家，因为我能趁机能和你相处在一起。习惯了你每天早上给我打电话，因为这样我才很有活力的面对接下来的挑战。习惯了和你一起面对面的吃饭，因为能看着你吃东西的样子很幸福。习惯了一上网就看你是否也在线，因为这样我们才有机会上网聊天。习惯了每分每秒查看手机萤幕，因为想确定是否有未读信息或是未接来电。习惯了每次坐在车上沿路都会看与你同款的车辆，

【我也希望有人对我这样霸道的说话】

2010-05-29T20:46:00.001+08:00
1.有本事你就照顾好自己，不然就老老实实地让我来照顾你！2.听着，我允许你喜欢我。除了白头偕老，我们没别的路可选了！3.你站在那不要动，等我飞奔过去！4.你给我听着，我爱你！5.你个笨蛋啊！遇到这种事要站在我后面！6.跟我走，总有一天，你的名字会出现在我家的户口本上！7.这世界上除了我谁都没资格陪在你身边！8.你是我都舍不得欺负的人，哪能让别人欺负你！9.一辈子那么长，等你几年算什么！10.我爱的人，我要亲手给你幸福，别人我不放心！11.我想你的时候，我一定要找得到你12.不许你们欺负他！全世界只有我才可以！13.放弃你，下辈子吧！14.全天下最好的东西都应该归我所有，包括你！！！15.你不会叠衣服一边呆着去，以后我来叠！16.我一定要给你幸福，谁也别想拦着！17.只要你要，只要我有，你还外边转什么啊！老实在我身边待着就行了！18.听我的就是，问那么多干嘛！我在你身边，你还怎么可能走错路！

edit

2010-05-29T17:30:00.003+08:00
changed my blog header..i love that Japanese woman who is kissing a flower..although it is a bit too colourful for me..but luckily the colours are not too bright..after reading all my posts, i feel that---WOW.. i have written so many stories.. XDim very satisfied for what i have written here.. whenever i have bad mood, blogging is what i do..i will feel better after that..I STARTED TO LOVE MY

无题

2010-05-28T16:24:00.002+08:00
没有题目的一篇。就只想写些浮现在我脑里的一切。想到什么就写什么，是我的目的。'I Will Always Love You' by Whitney Houston..超高难度的一首抒情歌。已经被众多的歌手翻唱的一首歌。16句'I Will Always Love You'..很有意思。我们之间没吵过架，是否是好事。因为在乎，所以吵架。是很多冷战中情侣的心情。‘因为在乎你，所以会苦口婆心的说你，劝你。’对方一旦觉得不好听，就会生气闹别扭，然后吵架。我们呢? 难道我们不在乎对方吗?想了很久，并不是这样的。我不爱吵架，所以我不会说些你不爱听的话来惹你。我会尽量拐弯抹角的让你知道。因为我不喜欢吵架的滋味。而且在发现就要开始吵架时，我一定会忍不住的先哭。(虽然没发生过)而我知道你不喜欢女生在你面前哭。所以我不会想要和你吵架，因为我不想让你看见我哭的样子。不过很矛盾的，

sick @~@

2010-05-26T21:05:00.003+08:00
having headache these few days..not feeling well..having chapped lips.. (pain..) T.Tbut still going to campus like normal..dont feel like want to skip classes..because there are many notes need to copy in a day..headache and heartache at the same time..gosh.. faint soon.. @.@need to sleep early today..let my mind rest early a bit..bye bye~~

乱了

2010-05-25T20:57:00.002+08:00
今天因为你的一封简讯，我的思绪又开始乱七八糟了。虽然简讯只有短短两句，我却看了好久。虽然你说只是和我开玩笑，嘴角却没有因此而上仰。从我们各自恢复单身的时候，我就一直在想：我们还有可能吗？可我却很清楚的知道答案会是什么。每当看到某些人，经过某些地方时，就会想起我们的回忆。回忆里的画面是幸福的，可是过后郁闷还是会在心里慢慢蔓延。每天在乘坐巴士时，就会想到你。不想说话，心情低落，思绪混乱。有好几次的我很想在巴士里掉泪。我想了又想很想哭的原因，到头来我的答案只有三个子-不舍得。至于不舍得些什么我还不知道。我今天才发现，我还放不下你，我还爱着你。虽然我们所认识的时间不是很长，却已经足够让我相信你。你知道吗？你所说的每一句话我都当真，我都相信。你说你爱我，我信。你说你另有喜欢的女生，我也信。你说你有喜欢的女生却其实只是在骗我，我都信。反正你说什么我都毫无犹豫的相信你。你喜欢别的女生我不会反对，

at last

2010-05-23T21:30:00.003+08:00
at last i can type chinese in the post..yeah.. it feels great.. XDcan type whatever things i want to say which are difficult to translate into english..last time the service cant work out with the chinese character..but dont know why suddenly can already.. hahaa..

he is 20 today..

2010-05-22T21:39:00.002+08:00
happy birthday to Boon.. ^^yeah.. its his birthday today..hope that all his wishes come true..and get a job soon.. XDhaving tea with him this evening..he ordered lamb chop and jasmine tea..and i ordered a glass of hot chocolate..i tried the lamd chop with its mushroom sauce and the taste not bad..although the mutton still have its own kind of 'lamb smell'.. XDafter finished the lamb chop, ate the

going to burst

2010-05-21T21:38:00.002+08:00
did things that i shouldn't do..keep acting stupid like last time..i just cant control myself..today took bus go back home..having a pair of school couple sitting in front of me..my mind flashed back many things..all the memories i had with him..all the words that he said to me..all the things that he did for me..i very appreciate it..i love you for no reason..that's why im still loving you

what a hard day for me.. @.@

2010-05-20T22:51:00.002+08:00
why both of you like that?why both of you just cant sit properly and talk the things out peacefully?now i become the people in between..dont know what to do.. ==does she care? (i dont know..)does he care? (definately is a 'yes'..)the reason of starting this case is just stupid..he is falling too deep for her..too deep until cant let it go although it's suffering..'its worth it' is what he said to

im crazy..

2010-05-19T21:03:00.002+08:00
i dont know what im doing recently..although i already told myself that i should think carefully and dont do the stupid things again..but i did it again..doing things that i do not suppose to do it..stupid me.. i hate myself..cant think that im still his girlfriend..but the communication and the situation between us just like last time..nothing changed.. just we dont hold hands anymore..i hate

Jake Sully

2010-05-18T22:43:00.002+08:00
i just watched Avatar..wow.. what a great movie.. XDlove the spirit of The People..love the environment..love everythings that are in blue!!! ^^and of course---LOVE Jake Sully.. >

Sunday rainy night

2010-05-16T22:40:00.002+08:00
it is raining heavily outside now..just came back from my cousin's house..doing nothing at her home except chit-chatting and online.. XDraining now..makes me think until Lara's song---"xia yu tian" (rainy day)yeah.. i miss him a lot today..still dont know the reason why i miss him..we will meet each other tomorrow night.. (im not so sure about that..)i hope that its a 'yes' from him..i would like

my life

2010-05-14T21:21:00.002+08:00
having back my own single life now..however, i still cant get used to it..miss him a lot whenever i passed by somewhere that related to him..pay extra attention to the same brand of his car.. (hoping for some miracles.. maybe..)read his messages for a dozen time in a day..hoping for his calls and messages..seeing him online will make me feel better.. (at least i have the chance of chatting with

im ok..

2010-05-12T20:34:00.003+08:00
im going to accept my faith..yeah.. its over now..im sad, crying over my bed, pillow all wet, tissues nearly finished..but im still need to continue my day, my college life, my studies, and my life of course..after crying for a few days or maybe for weeks..im going to be all right..i promise..im not going to let all my friends worry about me..im ok and fine as long as i live happily..im single

i nearly lack of patience!!!

2010-05-11T21:28:00.002+08:00
everyday asking me the same type of questions..everyday saying the same kind of things..yeah.. i can handle it now..but i dont know i can stand it for how long..because i know that i dont have that kind of patience to listen to your words..i always said 'never mind', 'is ok', 'just go for it'..thats not true..so please dont try to challenge my patience..because i dont have a high EQ..

no mood..

2010-05-09T20:42:00.002+08:00
being moody the whole evening..im not so sure about the reason..i wanted to cry, but no tear's coming out from my eyes.. ==i wanted to shout, but no screaming's coming out from my mouth.. ==i wanted to see him, but i cant go out.. ==facing the computer the whole day.. feel bored..online seems to be getting boring and boring..will be less online after today because my college life starts

Pitbull

2010-05-09T14:55:00.003+08:00
Pitbull is a term commonly used to describe several breeds of dog in the molosser family. Many breeds specific laws used the term 'pitbull' to refer to the modern American Pitbull Terrier, American Staffordshire Terrier, and Staffordshire Bull Terrier, and dogs with significant mixes of these breeds. All 3 breeds share similar history, with origins rooted from the bulldog and a variety of

08/05/2010

2010-05-08T20:05:00.002+08:00
the last gathering before my college life start.. (10/05/2010)morning went to his house and watched American Pitbull's videos.. ==he loves Pitbull so much and keep saying that Pitbull is the world's strongest dog ever..i was like---ok, i get it.. hahaa.. XDhe has a Red-Nose Pitbull(is it??) as a pet, but it's only 3 monthes old.. (if im not mistaken..)it has damn short fur and it's looks like

a pure Gemini

2010-05-05T22:25:00.002+08:00
Gemini has two sides of faces, different thinking during day and night..both of us are the same..but he is just thinking way too much..he called me yesterday midnight and told me all his thought..he scares that someday he will hurt my feelings..he scares he cant give me what i really need and want..because his personality has changed since he broke up with his ex.. (his thought..)i cried after

i will be there when you need me~~

2010-05-01T20:29:00.002+08:00
i know you are facing some problem these few days..i dont dare to ask you about your matter..because i know that you need to solve it your ownself and dont want to let me worry..i wont force you to tell me all the things..but i will be a good listener if u are willing to tell me.. ^^i'll give you some time as i promised..because i trust you..i just want to tell you that..whenever you need me..i

26/04/2010

2010-04-28T21:02:00.002+08:00
monday i went out to Boon's house at 9.30am.. (damn early..)although his house is just nearby, but i still want he fetch me go..hahaa.. because i like to sit his car.. ^^when i 1st enter his house..i was like: OMG.. so 'tidy'.. ==never mind.. its not my house.. hahaa.. (cant let Boon saw this post.. ==)i onlined at his house using his laptop.. (i dont know how to use a laptop!!)listened S.H.E

pass~~ XD

2010-04-25T16:10:00.002+08:00
YEAH!!!!at last.. i finished my undang exam..and get a 'LULUS'.. hahaa.. XD47/50.. not bad.. ^^going for movie tomorrow.. 'Ice Kacang Puppy Love', im coming!!! XD

today..

2010-04-21T23:01:00.003+08:00
today is the last day working at Starcom Mediavest Group.. (maybe..)actually quite sad because i already get to know some good friends there.. ^^however.. i need to prepare for my college life..less than 1 month to enter new school>>>TARC.. (10th of May..)currently my feeling is --- DON'T KNOW..waiting for your call/sms???waiting for you to online???or just dont want to sleep??? (because of you??

^^

2010-04-18T21:18:00.002+08:00
ermm..what i wrote below this post..just ignore it..because i was thinking too much that time..and it all solve now.. ^^again..i should trust you, and i will as i promise you..hope that we will meet tomorrow.. XDthanks alot..my lou gong zai.. ^^

getting tired soon??

2010-04-18T15:16:00.002+08:00
after 1 week with you, i started to scare that you are going to feel tired of this relationship..because im getting more tired whenever i cant go out with you..i know your dissapointment and me too..you are a jaguar that have the freedom to go anywhere..but im onli a little pigeon which is being locked all the time..i scare that your dissapointment will grow deeper and deeper..and my worries are

A Sudden Suprise In My Life

2010-04-17T23:11:00.002+08:00
03-04-2010 : 1st time i met and get to know him from SookMoon..07-04-2010 : 1st time went to pasar malam with him.. (and also SookMoon)09-04-2010 : 'please be my girl friend'..11-04-2010 : he hold my hand and kissed me for the 1st time.. (my 1st kiss..)so fast.. everything was like a turbo car accelerating on the high-way..should i trust you? should i couple with you? should i treat you seriously

S.H.E>>>SHERO

2010-03-26T22:02:00.003+08:00
26/03/2010---the releasing of S.H.E 12th album>>>SHEROwow.. there's 2 version---Glamorous & Stylishi already pre-order these two version and they just cost me RM80.. XDsince 2001, they already release 12 albums include SHERO..among so many albums, SHERO is the nicest and the most glamorous album.. (for me.. ^^)the size of both version of the album is A4 size..(WOW~~this is the 1st time of

S.H.E Is The One 愛而為一 Live In Malaysia 2010

2010-03-01T21:20:00.003+08:00
yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i received a service sms today and congratz me that i have won 2 S.H.E concert tickets..wow.. at last.. i waited this sms for a long time since last week..i enter the A-MAGAZINE sms contest and i sent total 10 times.. (1 sms only cost me 30 cent..)hahaa.. i was damn happy after i read the sms.. XDi shared the good news to all my best friends because i really wanted to share

out going.. ^^

2010-02-22T21:29:00.005+08:00
whoa.. at last can go out with friends.. ^^hahaa.. sing karaoke at greenbox then watch movie at TS.. XDtoday very lucky..because sing karaoke and watch movie got people belanja me..hahaa.. XD 'shuang!!!'but then next time i have to belanja them back.. == (never mind la.. hahaa.. ^^)saw meifong working at BBQ.. (i dont know how to spell.. ==)then took photo with her.. ^^wow.. she is

CNY 2010.. ^^

2010-02-17T21:10:00.009+08:00
yeah..HAPPY Chinese New Year!! ^^this year didnt get much angpau because didnt visit much relatives..mm.. but the total quite satisfied..hahaa.. XDthe 2nd day of CNY we went to my cousin's house..wow.. her face look dark compared to the time before she went to NS..and also looked slim..hahaa.. congratz.. ^^the 3rd day we all went to Pavilion and have a walk..(my parents haven visit Pavilion

"就想赖着你"限量喜饼 ^^

2010-01-27T22:13:00.009+08:00
today my mom accompany me go to the SRI PENTAS, 8TV there take the wedding biscuit box..its from ELLA and JERRY's new drama -- DOWN WITH LOVE..i enter the 8E NEWS contest on Monday and get the good news on Tues.. XDhahaa.. i was very happy when the moment i heard the news.. my mom on leave today..so she decided to take me go there then take the box back..when i took the box wanna enter the lift

S.H.E in M'sia...

2010-01-23T17:01:00.013+08:00
21/01/2010S.H.E reached M'sia around two something in the evening..some of the forum member went to KLIA to welcome 3 of them..then they have fans gathering at Leisure Mall.. (i cant attend.. dad dont let.. T.T)22/01/2010S.H.E held their only one promo tour at SG Wang during nightime.. (cant go also.. T.T)yesterday listen their live record in MY FM i nearly cried.. ==I CANT SEE THEM!!!!!! ><

wee wiit~~

2010-01-20T21:54:00.003+08:00
today mommy brought back two different bags which are imported from Korea..muahahaaaa......... XDi like mine so much..it cost about RM40.. (quite expensive..==)she bought it last month through online buying..I LOVE YOU, MOMMY!!! ^^the bag very stylish.. (for me la.. hahaa..)but my mom said dont use it 1st..wait until when we go vacation that time only use it.. ==but anyway.. i still like my

~joey~The Inner Me~

该醒了

HATE

乱

看不见的心情

疯了

even if i die, i cant let you go - 2AM

心痛

is this for real?

有口说别人，没口说自己

CNY??? its just a normal celebration for me this year

can i make it???

Goodbye-Jang Geun Suk

Jang Geun Suk - What should i do

What Should I Do-Park Da Ye

JANG GEUN SUK!!!

Still-A.N.JELL

Without Words-Park Shin Hye

2011

寂寞

someone else is coming to town..

A N JELL

又来了

drive

思念太猖狂

i dont like holidays

X_X

祷告

simple but stress life

吳克羣 沒關係 MV

test 3

enjoy-ING~~~

changed

Love The Way You Lie

i hate to wait

im ok ^^

im wrong

im getting crazy~~~

worry

To Hebe

miracle~

whee~~

田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好 (HQ 官方版MV)

Hebe田馥甄《LOVE》MV全球首播(清晰)

LOVE-Hebe

Hebe---"TO HEBE"

stress~~ AGAIN.. T.T

Blood Donation

Sushi King

Hong Kong relatives~~

son of the bitch

stress..

tired..

photos of 12/06

out with friends..

happy birthday..

爱上你

~@~

changed again..

no title of the day

放弃你

happy.. ^^

习惯

【我也希望有人对我这样霸道的说话】

edit

无题

sick @~@

乱了

at last

he is 20 today..

going to burst

what a hard day for me.. @.@

im crazy..

Jake Sully

Sunday rainy night

my life

im ok..

i nearly lack of patience!!!

no mood..

Pitbull

吳克羣沒關係 MV